"They all spoke together, and he
whom I took to be Satan used words full of horror. In the distance
I could hear a clamor as of feasting, the clinking of glasses...
and he cried: 'Let them cram themselves with food! It will make it
all the easier for us... Let them get on with their banqueting.
Love of pleasure is the door through which you will reach them...'
"He added such horrible things that
they can neither be written nor said. Then, as if engulfed in a
whirl of smoke, they vanished." (February 3, 1923).
"The evil one was bewailing the
escape of a soul: 'Fill
her soul with fear, drive her to despair. All will be lost if she
puts her trust in the mercy of that...' (here they used
blasphemous words about Our Lord). 'I am lost; but no, drive her
to despair; do not leave her for an instant, above all, make her
despair.'
"Then Hell re-echoed with frenzied
cries, and when finally the devil cast me out of the abyss, he
went on threatening me. Among other things he said: 'Is it
possible that such weaklings have more power than I, who am
mighty... I must conceal my presence, work in the dark; any corner
will do from which to tempt them... close to an ear.. in the
leaves of a book... under a bed... some pay no attention to me,
but I shall talk and talk... and by dint of suggestion, something
will remain.. Yes, I must hide in unsuspected places.'" (February
7, 8, 1923).
Again, she wrote: "Souls were
cursing the vocation they had received, but not followed... the
vocation they had lost, because they were unwilling to live a
hidden and mortified life..." (March 18, 1922.
"On one occasion when I was in
Hell, I saw a great many priests, religious and nuns, cursing
their vows, their order, their Superiors and everything that could
have given them the light and the grace they had lost...
"I saw, too, some prelates. One
accused himself of having used the goods belonging to the Church
illicitly..." (September 28, 1922).
"Priests were calling down
maledictions on their tongues which had consecrated, on their
fingers that had held Our Lord's Sacred Body, on the absolution
they had given while they were losing their own souls, and on the
occasion through which they had fallen into Hell." (April 6,
1922).
"One priest said: 'I ate poison,
for I used money that was not my own... the money given me for
Masses which I did I not offer.'
"Another said he belonged to a
secret society which had betrayed the Church and religion, and he
had been bribed to connive at terrible profanations and
sacrileges.
"Yet another said that he was
damned for assisting at profane plays, after which he ought not to
have said Mass... and that he had spent about seven years thus."
Josefa noted that the greater
number of religious plunged into hell-fire were there for
abominable sins against chastity... and for sins against the vow
of poverty... for the unauthorized use of the goods of the
community... for passions against charity (jealousy, antipathies,
hatred, etc.), for tepidity and relaxation; also for comforts they
had allowed themselves and which had led to graver sins... for bad
confessions through human respect and want of sincerity and
courage, etc.
Here, finally, is the full text of
Josefa's notes on "the
hell of consecrated souls." (Biography:
Ch. VII--September 4, 1922).
"The meditation of the day was on
the Particular Judgment of religious souls. I could not free my
mind of the thought of it, in spite of the oppression which I
felt. Suddenly, I felt myself bound and overwhelmed by a crushing
weight, so that in an instant I saw more clearly than ever before
how stupendous is the sanctity of God and His detestation of sin.
"I saw in a flash my whole life
since my first confession to this day. All was vividly present to
me: my sins, the graces I had received, the day I entered
religion, my clothing as a novice, my first vows, my spiritual
readings, and times of prayer, the advice given me, and all the
helps of religious life. Impossible to describe the confusion and
shame a soul feels at that moment, when it realizes: 'All is lost,
and I am damned forever.'"
As in her former descents into
Hell, Josefa never accused herself of any specific sin that might
have led to such a calamity. Our Lord meant her only to feel what
the consequences would have been, if she had merited such a
punishment. She wrote:
"Instantly I found myself in Hell,
but not dragged there as before. The soul precipitates itself
there, as if to hide from God in order to be free to hate and
curse Him.
"My soul fell into abysmal depths,
the bottom of which cannot be seen, for it is immense... at once,
I heard other souls jeering and rejoicing at seeing me share their
torments. It was martyrdom enough to hear the terrible
imprecations on all sides, but what can be compared to the thirst
to curse that seizes on a soul, and the more one curses, the more
one wants to. Never had I felt the like before. Formerly my soul
had been oppressed with grief at hearing these horrible
blasphemies, though unable to produce even one act of love. But
today it was otherwise.
"I saw Hell as always before, the
long dark corridors, the cavities, the flames... I heard the same
execrations and imprecations, for--and of this I have already
written before--although no corporeal forms are visible, the
torments are felt as if they were present, and souls recognize
each other. Some called out, 'Hullo, you here? And are you like
us? We were free to take those vows or not... but no!...' and they
cursed their vows.
"Then I was pushed into one of
those fiery cavities and pressed, as it were, between burning
planks, and sharp nails and red-hot irons seemed to be piercing my
flesh."
Here Josefa repeated the multiple
tortures from which no single member of the body is excluded:
"I felt as if they were endeavoring
to pull out my tongue, but could not. This torture reduced me to
such agony that my very eyes seemed to be starting out of their
sockets. I think this was because of the fire which burns,
burns... not a finger-nail escapes terrifying torments, and all
the time one cannot move even a finger to gain some relief, nor
change posture, for the body seems flattened out and yet doubled
in two.
"All this I felt as before, and
although those
tortures were
terrific, they would be bearable if the soul were at peace. But it
suffers indescribably. Until now, when I went down into Hell, I
thought that I had been damned for abandoning religious life. But
this time it was different. I bore a special mark, a sign that I
was a religious, a soul who had known and loved God, and there
were others who bore the same sign. I cannot say how I recognized
it, perhaps because of the specially insulting manner in which the
evil spirits and other damned souls treated them. There were many
priests there, too. This particular suffering I am unable to
explain. It was quite different from what I had experienced at
other times, for if the souls of those who lived in the world
suffer terribly, infinitely worse are the torments of religious.
Unceasingly the three words, Poverty, Chastity and Obedience, are
imprinted on the soul with poignant remorse.